A month has passed

And life has just been hurtling along. To the accompanying tune of me yelling to hurry up most mornings, to whining, me & the 5yr old! And the temper tantrums of a the baby who is speedily cruising furniture at merely 7mths old! My creative urges are hampered by lack of a space of my own and lack of organisation as well as exhaustion. Christmas is coming way too fast but we'll make it I am sure. With a messy kitchen, nappies to sort, and a tired mum with a list that greatly exceeds those two ongoing items, i had better get a move on.

Late again

Bugger it's nearly midnight again, silly me. Still trying to get some kind of order into the house so we can get all the renovation things we have started finished! Life gets in the way, the daily grind of feeding & school & nappies & washing, then we were hit with a cold & everything goes into backlog mode. Ugh, will it ever improve? I know the answer, yes & no, the little one will grow & be more independent, though that is bittersweet, and by then the medium one will be big. Madness. After just finally feeling like a grown up when I turned 30 only a few yrs later & I am feeling like life is going too fast and I can see the yrs flying ahead. Really bed calls, so teeth time & it should at least be this side of midnight even if only barely...

About time

I wrote again, I was asked why have I got this and I realised it is as a way to start making, to start sewing, creating, etc and prove to myself that I am as good as the next person and that we can be good & differently good alongside each other without issues of someone else being better. I think one day it will progress to a new blog just for Design28, with more Art/Craft and less rambling!

I slept in today to get rid of a cold that was starting due to late nights and here I am up again at almost 11pm. Was going to bake, but as it really is too late I think I will have some toast & get myself to bed. Planning to go swimming tomorrow am, so will try to bake beforehand and hopefully sew at some point tomorrow. Though my sewing space is needing to be re-homed as it is getting too crowded where it is. That might have to be my first project.

Saw a programme on worst jobs of Tudor times and they showed the making of a blue dye from the plant Woad. Smells shocking apparently but would be cool to try this one day I have found a great Herb site I can buy it from, so maybe one day... Hmm and maybe with summer coming I could get a solar oven up & running with the kidlets... Hope this enthusiasm stays to carry out these ideas! LOL

Bloody cancer

When I think of Juliette, my good friend who died of cancer, Michelle, on Close Up last night & TM threads, of her having to explain to her children, to face the potential of leaving them so young, my daily gripes & inaction pale in comparison and I am renewed in my resolve against depression seeping in again. I have come a long way and understand me & life more now. I guess in that I also have to allow those low ebb days even though some have their days limited and I feel I should make the most of it all. Why though are we not as a society, as a world, going back to basics? Why are companies & governments still denying that many food/beauty additives & preservatives are dangerous?? Why is our food still being sprayed with chemicals? When will organic products & produce become the norm and be priced so people can afford to be healthy? When will our governments outlaw cigarettes, we KNOW for an absolute certainty that they kill. Would you go for a drive if you KNEW with certainty that you would be hit, badly injured and consequently die slowly and in pain in hospital? Unlikely!!

Hmm this pic thing is hard anyway have played round for over an hour too long, really must hit the sack now.

Such great crafty stuff

and the people doing it seem to fit so much in, yet i seem to be "stuck". My stuff is as good as what i see, so why don't I just get going & create loads, fill our house with my creations instead of papers & mess & wishes. I don't get what is stopping me, well ok, apart from now needing to go to bed and a bit of a headache again in the same place as earlier which started from a head butt courtesy of my 5mth old!! Watch this space... I hope!

A Wednesday today

Pretty good day despite wet feet & cold rain & not managing to get the fire going. Turned on the oven instead & made my best ever Banana & Choc chip muffins - YUM! Also made a yum loaf of bread & got to go do a top up grocery shop alone, may sound mad, but a big deal to be able to go without the baby!! Still trying to find balance and get a rhythm going again, exercise is non existent, though when the sun popped out yesterday i did go for a walk round a few blocks after dropping my son at school. Creating is getting stonkered by lack of tidyness & organisation in our house. Got a bit of the garage cleared again the other day, I guess every bit is good, just as long as it stays clear & we get on to taking pics of the sale items & getting them on TM! Might go to bed soon, was going to make more muffins, but i think an early night with my book might be nicer, I can do more muffins in the morning. Need to get some links sorted & some pics, some blogs are so inspiring, I'd like mine to be inspiring also, even if only for myself! LOL

Bugger just realised it is Thursday

Forgot to put out rubbish & recycling. Two slightly sick kids, the little one grizzly & overtired with it, the big one bored are driving their tired mum to distraction. At an exhausted low, house is a tip, washing is coming out my ears and I don't want to do it as the tub leaks so for every load I have an extra towel to catch the leak! Going mad!!!

Monday

Hmm, well had first API meeting again, went well, good group of new people though would be cool to see some old faces mixed in too! Unsure about ongoing day/venue, but will sort that. Chatted with one of the mums for a while at the park afterwards. House a bombsite, but managed to get tea semi on time. Was planning to do washing & biscuits tonight but think bed is a better choice & I'll get up early instead, saves lighting the fire too, wood is getting low. Must hem new pants & get on with something from my ever increasing to do list, actually tomorrow since I forgot today I ought to call the plumber about the leaky tub taps, bugger it. Right no more procrastination, time for bed...

Sunday

Another weekend is gone, filled with nothing much but not in a great way. Not in a no pressing jobs to do we can sit round & check out cloud shapes kind of way. While I do see that as highly important especially while the children are little, the balance needs to be there and there needs to be no to do lists in my head. So while i have lots of things to do, washing to hang out (at 9pm at night), mending to do, dishes as always, the need for more baking as I am dairy free & prefer organic if poss. and no additives, preservatives etc - sorry a tangent, life is a bit like that these days! Also need to get ready for the week ahead and for bed so I am a fun mummy tomorrow not a monster mummy.
So what are my goals here? I guess to see if I can keep this going, if I feel it's as good as others I have seen, to get to know myself more, and maybe to inspire my creativity and get a little business going. To achieve balance in my life, get organised & manage to produce meals each night. To not be hanging washing on the line at 9pm but instead 9am.