A dozy dazy day.  PMT making me irritable & sluggish.  I "feel" about 10kg heavier than I actually am.  My brain will not kick into gear.  I have a bunch of things I need to do yet no inclination to do any of them.  Helping with a national AGM & training wknd is great till the wknd itself looms and I feel like burrowing for a week.  Actually burrowing is never enough for this week, a coma for the week would do nicely.  Yes yes, be careful what I wish for but its ok I have had all the bad luck I am going to have.  Hhmm, I will feel better if I do something, def don't want to face the dishes.  Kids have a friend over so can't go to grocery shop.  Steam mop the floors before carpet comes tomorrow?  Bora treat the holes?  AGM stuff & keep wking on presentations for workshops?  Hhmm maybe that maybe upload photos and choose the best.  I don't have to shift my weighty self, I can stay on my crux, the pc.  I wish our medical system gave a shit so I didn't have to self fund complimentary treatment...

The answer is in the question

I like this idea, that the answer is in the question and that inherent in that is that I therefore have all the answers for me.  When I am restless, I need to rest.  If only all the answers where that simple.  I feel directionless and yet like the options are too numerous and then not enough.  So where is the answer in that?  Be directionless?  Allow myself to feel free & loose from the binds of expectation, and obligation?  Feels a bit shaky to contemplate that.  And to be honest I am bored, I need my brain to be working again on something I love that inspires me and that I can get energy out of.  And I need my days to be shifted back a few hrs so I am not up at midnight wondering about starting the life I am already living.