Want fish & chips! After midnight, don't really feel tired. Though I am doing a few yawns, slow learner? Hmm what is the pay off?? Not having to be in real world next day?? Been irritable & had an absence of feeling, makes it hard to connect with hubby & the kids. Day 22, hmm think I missed last two nights of filling in chart of symptoms, thats the trouble with this bloody PMDD, forgetfulness just when you need evidence to create a paper trail of proof in case I need to go the dr route again. 5-7 days with any luck and happy sanity returns...
Visited a Monastery at the weekend, stayed two nights. Was very very quiet, too much after less than 24hrs!! But had great friend there so talked a bit in eve and was relieved of my loneliness. Did you know that 100's of cows biting off grass makes lots of noise, not unpleasant, but surprising to a townie :-) Sat in hot sun, read, wasn't distracted by tv or the net. Had my own lovely room with ensuite, quite a luxury, warm, selfcontained, inspirational books. Yes, missing it a little.
So despite being seriously late to bed & already likely to be a grump tomorrow, it's a new day right, so could yet be outstanding. And it's Tuesday so Monday is past, that's a good thing. Plans to go help a friend do some packing, must fit in a walk or the gym. Would like to stretch the energy to baking and sewing and some tidy up but hey lets wait & see. If only I didn't keep getting caught up in tv shows... Be strong, turn it off, brush teeth, check children & doors, go to bed. Want cake, lemon cake with yoghurt, raspberry choc cake...
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